A Poetic Commentary: Melondy Pt 3
Cross My Heart
hope we don’t die
please don’t leave me high and dry
The Fireside book of FISHING
I’m strung out on this hook
your candied bait I’ve took
IN THE FAST LANE
I know, it’s a need for speed
but why am I always the one to bleed?
YOUR BODY & how
it works
I’m swimmin’ upstream doing your thing
am I really just some plaything?
THE PREDATORS
when will the leeches layoff?
can’t you see I’m coming down with this cough?
“WE”
I’ll do anything for your need
but your love reeks more of greed
WITHOUT ME YOU’RE NOTHING
yes, enmeshed in you
but you said we were like glue
I See London, I See France
never thought they’d see my underpants
never thought I’d risk that chance
SPIKED
twas innocent enough, meet up with him
after class
never thought to think about what was in
that glass
THE MARK-OFF WOMEN
never thought I’d just be another tick on
his list
never thought I was special enough to
be kissed
SEDUCTION by DESIGN
looking back, ya, he knew just what to say
never thought sweet-talking could lead my heart astray
Virgin and Martyr
I was one, now I’m considered the other
never thought I could ever tell my mother
YOUR BODY & how it works
apparently I needed an education
never thought I’d “learn” via mortification
All He Ever Wanted
never thought that was what he wanted
never thought I’d live feeling haunted
Kitty Cat, Kitty Cat, Scratched My Leg
and you didn’t ask anymore questions
no need to make anymore confessions
A TEAR AND A SMILE
shed a tear, slash a tear
smile in relief of this nightmare
BLEEDING HEART
cut my arm to stop the pain
and you think I’m just insane
BEYOND THIS POINT ARE MONSTERS
no, not hiding under my bed
no, they abide inside my head
BLOOD WORK
numb, so numb, here I kneel
carve out my pain, just want to feel
ASYLUM FOR THE QUEEN
nowhere is safe, you don’t understand
it is my blood they demand
THE DETLING SECRET
that I could never tell
you can’t comprehend my hell
KILLER'S LAUGHTER
they're never quiet
but live in a perpetual riot
Helping Someone with Mental Illness
helping? you think you’re helping?
no, it’s just too overwhelming
STOLEN LIVES
stolen? is it worth getting back?
I’ll just suffer another anxiety attack
Now I Lay Me Down To Sleep
pray the Lord my soul to keep
and if I die while counting sheep…
If...
not even the question anymore
when, that’s a better word to explore
Drive Me Crazy
can’t take it anymore
what’s this life worth living for?
NOT A DAY GOES BY
that I don’t consider it
do I have the nerve to commit?
AT RISK
they say I’m in despair
but what do they care?
DEAD CONNECTION
make the connection
just need some affection
LOVE’S EXECUTIONER
wrote the note, how I loved you
just wish you felt the same too
BLESSED TRAGEDY
to be put out of this misery
sorry if this causes injury
NATURE’S END
screaming, I came into this world
crying, sighing, I leave it unfurled
Rock A Bye, Bye Baby
climb out my window by the treetop
where the wind blows my feet follow nonstop
PANIC
when the news breaks, 9-1-1 they will call
but I’ll be long gone, once and for all
Runaway
just can’t take it anymore
no matter what I say, they’d just ignore
If You Had Controlling Parents
you’d understand
and give me a hand
DONE WRONG
that’s right they did
and they blame me, I’m just the kid!
The Opposite of Love
I could give you a laundry list
but for now, I think you get the gist
FIASCO
that’s what it was alright
but no one wants to listen to my plight
THE SILENT CRADLE
it’s been that way for a long long time
finally said enough of this grime!
THE GIRL WHO KICKED THE HORNET’S NEST
but is this much better?
perhaps I should of packed a sweater
A COLOSSAL FAILURE OF COMMON SENSE
accomplished Plan A: disappear
but where do I go from here?
Dr Strangelove’s Game
at least there’s someone in this world that cares
even gave me a place to stay in his downstairs
THE FINAL DIAGNOSIS
but it’s not all together for him either
he needs my help so he can catch a breather
On Beauty
he’s given me so much and nicknamed me Beautiful
not helping him out would be inexcusable
LIES (And the Lying Liars Who Tell Them)
who to believe? no one to trust
guess I’ll just have to adjust
NO SAFE PLACE
no, not anywhere
just want to wake up from this nightmare
BOULEVARD OF BROKEN DREAMS
walking these streets, but not alone
walking these streets, trailing testosterone
Somewhere Over The Rainbow
skies are blue
and the dreams that I dream,
really do come true?
HOW TO GET TO HEAVEN FROM YOUR HOUSE
oh tell me please
please show me the keys
LAUGH AGAIN
oh the thought of joy
this negativity to destroy
FROM ASHES TO GLORY
wounds heal, be not gory
oh when will start this brand new story?
A WHOLE NEW LIFE
a whole new joy, here and now
a whole new perspective, wow!
FORGIVING
a good place to start
set free from bitterness my dear heart!
Failure is Not an Option
after all, I’m not in this alone
I’m with Someone, by Whom, I am deeply known
MIRACLES
they happen big and small
if you believe and follow the call
MAKE IT HAPPEN
take the first step
follow the light, in His footsteps
Once Upon A Time
a long long time ago
in a place I used to know
Harvest of Yesterdays
is this reaping what was sown?
finally paying off the loan?
HOW TO GET WELL
I want to be well, I want to be well
I want to be well, I just want to yell!
SILENT NO MORE
can’t keep this bottled up
can’t keep covering up
TELL ME MORE
will you listen, really listen?
cuz it’s compassion I’m really missin’
DARE TO DREAM
let it flow
feel the glow
Girls Forever Brave and True
I can be one
Yes, I am one
MEMORIES
painful stabs, repeating past
oh, how long will it last?
Yesterday, I Cried
they say it’s okay
good to let it out each day
PROMISES
this too shall pass
and I will be healed at last!
WHAT REMAINS
put the pieces back together
feel in the process, feel better
Never Forget
my whole is greater than the sum of my brokenness
faith, hope, and love bring me wholesomeness
FALL & RISE
no matter how hard and far I fell
it is never too hard or far to get well
What Little Girls Are Made Of
sugar and spice, everything nice?
hmm, what’s your price?
WE’VE GOT IT MADE IN AMERICA
not just far far on the other side of the
ocean blue
yup, but we’ve made it here in the U-S-of-
A, too
CATASTROPHE
that says it in a word
but the statistics are often quite blurred
PRESCRIPTION FOR DISASTER
run-aways, throw-aways, other exploitables, too
bystanders ignorantly apathetic of what they’re going through
DARKNESS ON THE EDGE OF TOWN
slick predators lurk in broad daylight
exquisitely enticing by fraud, force, or fright
LOOK BETTER NAKED
I know you can do it, my pretty girlfriend
you’ll make me so happy (and a fortune), in the end
A Woman’s Worth
whatcha got from last night?
baby, don’t make me beat you again, alright?!
I Don’t Know How She Does It
but she’s his bottom line
ya, she keeps the rest of us towing the line!
DON’T MAKE A SCENE
just do what you’re told
otherwise his love he might withhold
GUILT | ONLY LOVE | FIVE PAST MIDNIGHT | THREE WISHES
it’s the same night after night, day after day
try to stay alive, but for sale or display
HOMESICK
do I even have a home to be sick for?
or is that in part why they now call me a whore?
TWILIGHT CHILD
living in the shadows
don’t look like a victim, they suppose
RUNNING BLIND | DREAM COUNTRY | SHATTERED | A CERTAIN SLANT OF LIGHT
nowhere to run, nowhere to hide
nowhere to turn, cuz even I’m deceived inside
I’ll Be Seeing You | Remember Me | Let Me Call You Sweet Heart
you look pretty young to be out here like this
come with me and I’ll give you a better life miss
STREET TRENDS
the idea of leaving, of believing, of reassuring, oh so alluring
but pimp’s mom’s watching my baby, my returning ever insuring
HELL’S CARTEL
they’ve got their hands in everything
and I’m strung out, part of their ring
LITTLE ALTARS EVERYWHERE
on a corner here, a hotel room there
now a website, and another to compare
YOU BELONG TO ME | AMERICAN DREAMS | TOXIN | FIREBIRD
keep living “the life”
keep putting up with this strife
TIME EXPIRED
but how long can this go on?
they say the average is six years, then gone
SUICIDE SEASON
not sure this is a life worth living
don’t know how much longer I can keep on giving
THE LIES THAT BIND
these cords around my neck
are they any worse than the ones that keep my mind “in check”?
A Tangled Web
it’s just all so confusing
who to believe, who’s abusing?
PEACE LIKE A RIVER | “P” IS FOR PERIL | SUMMER ISLAND | THE INCUMBENT
perhaps I’ll fall asleep and never wake
finally at peace from this perpetual heartbreak
NEVER LOVE A STRANGER
never love again
never trust men
The Wanting
but something cries deep down inside me
something screaming I just want to be free
FAMILY POLITICS
ya just like politics and religion
sex and money aren’t to be spoken of, but in a hushed smidgen
Keep It Simple, Stupid
just do what your told
don’t ask questions, stay controlled
The Accidental Bride
accidental or on purpose?
are you just feeding me lip service?
Love & Desire & Hate
don’t know what to think anymore
don’t even have feeling left to ignore
THAT DEVIL’S NO FRIEND OF MINE
but I guess this one thing I do know
so long I’ve lived in the stupor of status quo
RAGING HEART
at least this anger proves I can feel again
but you want me to forgive what and when?!
THE RESCUE | CODE TO ZERO | MY MOTHER’S DAUGHTER | EVEN STEVEN
how ‘bout I actually get stable first
cuz literally everything in my life, in my head, is turned upside-down, reversed
WHEN GOD WHISPERS YOUR NAME
then you know there’s hope
gives me something I need this day to cope
Breaking Through
a new dawning
found I have true belonging
Peace, Love & Healing
one day at a time
will take a while to thoroughly heal from this crime
The Meaning of Life
oh, so much more than I was told
I can be my own person, live bold!
CHANGE
in a direction I couldn’t even then imagine
still living on earth, but it’s actually now heaven
CLOSE TO YOU
freedom, new life, here and now
will you let Me show you how?
Rain Rain, Go Away
can’t you see I’m sad today
why also make the sky so gray?
The Girl with No Shadow
no one notices
no condolences
A PATH THROUGH SUFFERING
paved alone
it’s all I’ve known
Find Me
in the crisis
just wanna be priceless
SEARCH THE SHADOWS
never give up
you’ll find me among the other screw-ups
IT TAKES a FAMILY
so start acting like one!
otherwise the dark side has won
Stop the Insanity!
these shadows are choking me
just want you, me, all of us, to be free
caught in the act
swear I was naive
please, I was deceived!
IN THE BLINK OF AN EYE
deliverance came!
such brilliant light cleansed my shame
SLAYING THE DRAGON
I stand alone no longer
Here stronger conquer the monster
CARE OF THE SOUL
mind no longer enshroud
more than possible, all power endowed
The Law of Love
a fresh perspective
a life now actually effective
STANDING FIRM
standing my ground
beyond the shadow, I am found!