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A Poetic Commentary: Alone I Die, Lest I Learn To Fly

Alone I Die, Lest I Learn To Fly In the Garden of Beasts Series

Alone I Die, Lest I Learn To Fly
In the Garden of Beasts Series

Alone I Die, Lest I Learn To Fly

    isolated on this lonely isle

    filthy, dirty, wretched, and vile

GRAY MATTER

    twas it a matter of conscience?

    how then twas much of me conscious?

encyclopedia of MORALS

    gone over and over and over again

    to this torment shall there be no end?

WHEN BOUNDARIES BETRAY US

    twas never meant to do harm

    must then be taken so by his charm

the year of MAGICAL THINKING

    became a score and two of its dark spell

    secretly keeping in me heart this hell

Our Game

    twas to be so innocent but of course

    yea innocence twas lost through subtle force

I NEVER PROMISED YOU A ROSE GARDEN

    memories forget any pledge be made

    but untold confessions of being afraid

F.I.A.S.C.O

    be tangled in this failure

    abandoned feel and out of favor

Body and Soul

    harm not one without the other

    heal not one without another

A Death of Innocence

    isolated in this lone isle

    must me thoughts and I reconcile

A Poetic Commentary: What Little Girls Are Made Of

What Little Girls Are Made Of Melondy: Issues of Adolescence Series

What Little Girls Are Made Of
Melondy: Issues of Adolescence Series

What Little Girls Are Made Of

    sugar and spice, everything nice?

    hmm, what’s your price?

WE’VE GOT IT MADE IN AMERICA 

    not just far far on the other side of the
       ocean blue

    yup, but we’ve made it here in the U-S-of-
       A, too

CATASTROPHE

    that says it in a word

    but the statistics are often quite blurred

PRESCRIPTION FOR DISASTER

    run-aways, throw-aways, other exploitables, too

    bystanders ignorantly apathetic of what they’re going through

DARKNESS ON THE EDGE OF TOWN 

    slick predators lurk in broad daylight

    exquisitely enticing by fraud, force, or fright

LOOK BETTER NAKED 

    I know you can do it, my pretty girlfriend

    you’ll make me so happy (and a fortune), in the end

A Woman’s Worth

    whatcha got from last night?

    baby, don’t make me beat you again, alright?!

I Don’t Know How She Does It 

    but she’s his bottom line

    ya, she keeps the rest of us towing the line!

DON’T MAKE A SCENE 

    just do what you’re told

    otherwise his love he might withhold

GUILT | ONLY LOVE | FIVE PAST MIDNIGHT | THREE WISHES 

    it’s the same night after night, day after day

    try to stay alive, but for sale or display

HOMESICK 

    do I even have a home to be sick for?

    or is that in part why they now call me a whore?

TWILIGHT CHILD

    living in the shadows

    don’t look like a victim, they suppose

RUNNING BLIND | DREAM COUNTRY | SHATTERED | A CERTAIN SLANT OF LIGHT 

    nowhere to run, nowhere to hide

    nowhere to turn, cuz even I’m deceived inside

I’ll Be Seeing You | Remember Me | Let Me Call You Sweet Heart 

    you look pretty young to be out here like this

    come with me and I’ll give you a better life miss

STREET TRENDS 

    the idea of leaving, of believing, of reassuring, oh so alluring

    but pimp’s mom’s watching my baby, my returning ever insuring

HELL’S CARTEL

    they’ve got their hands in everything

    and I’m strung out, part of their ring

LITTLE ALTARS EVERYWHERE 

    on a corner here, a hotel room there

    now a website, and another to compare

YOU BELONG TO ME | AMERICAN DREAMS | TOXIN | FIREBIRD 

    keep living “the life”

    keep putting up with this strife

TIME EXPIRED 

    but how long can this go on?

    they say the average is six years, then gone

SUICIDE SEASON

    not sure this is a life worth living

    don’t know how much longer I can keep on giving

THE LIES THAT BIND

    these cords around my neck

    are they any worse than the ones that keep my mind “in check”?

A Tangled Web 

    it’s just all so confusing

    who to believe, who’s abusing?

PEACE LIKE A RIVER | “P” IS FOR PERIL | SUMMER ISLAND | THE INCUMBENT 

    perhaps I’ll fall asleep and never wake

    finally at peace from this perpetual heartbreak

NEVER LOVE A STRANGER 

    never love again

    never trust men

The Wanting 

    but something cries deep down inside me

    something screaming I just want to be free

FAMILY POLITICS

    ya just like politics and religion

    sex and money aren’t to be spoken of, but in a hushed smidgen

Keep It Simple, Stupid 

    just do what your told

    don’t ask questions, stay controlled

The Accidental Bride 

    accidental or on purpose?

    are you just feeding me lip service?

Love & Desire & Hate 

    don’t know what to think anymore

    don’t even have feeling left to ignore

THAT DEVIL’S NO FRIEND OF MINE 

    but I guess this one thing I do know

    so long I’ve lived in the stupor of status quo

RAGING HEART 

    at least this anger proves I can feel again

    but you want me to forgive what and when?!

THE RESCUE | CODE TO ZERO | MY MOTHER’S DAUGHTER | EVEN STEVEN 

    how ‘bout I actually get stable first

    cuz literally everything in my life, in my head, is turned upside-down, reversed

WHEN GOD WHISPERS YOUR NAME 

    then you know there’s hope

    gives me something I need this day to cope

Breaking Through

    a new dawning

    found I have true belonging

Peace, Love & Healing

    one day at a time

    will take a while to thoroughly heal from this crime

The Meaning of Life 

    oh, so much more than I was told

    I can be my own person, live bold!

CHANGE

    in a direction I couldn’t even then imagine

    still living on earth, but it’s actually now heaven

CLOSE TO YOU 

    freedom, new life, here and now

    will you let Me show you how?

 

A Poetic Commentary: Rain Rain, Go Away

Rain Rain, Go Away Melondy: Issues of Adolescence Series

Rain Rain, Go Away
Melondy: Issues of Adolescence Series

Rain Rain, Go Away

    can’t you see I’m sad today

    why also make the sky so gray?

The Girl with No Shadow 

    no one notices

    no condolences

A PATH THROUGH SUFFERING

    paved alone

    it’s all I’ve known

Find Me

    in the crisis

    just wanna be priceless

SEARCH THE SHADOWS 

    never give up

    you’ll find me among the other screw-ups

IT TAKES a FAMILY 

    so start acting like one!

    otherwise the dark side has won

Stop the Insanity! 

    these shadows are choking me

    just want you, me, all of us, to be free

caught in the act

    swear I was naive

    please, I was deceived!

IN THE BLINK OF AN EYE

    deliverance came!

    such brilliant light cleansed my shame

SLAYING THE DRAGON

    I stand alone no longer

    Here stronger conquer the monster

CARE OF THE SOUL

    mind no longer enshroud

    more than possible, all power endowed

The Law of Love 

    a fresh perspective

    a life now actually effective

STANDING FIRM

    standing my ground

    beyond the shadow, I am found!

 

A Poetic Commentary: Cross My Heart

Cross My Heart Melondy: Issues of Adolescence Series

Cross My Heart
Melondy: Issues of Adolescence Series

Cross My Heart

    hope we don’t die

    please don’t leave me high and dry

The Fireside book of FISHING

    I’m strung out on this hook

    your candied bait I’ve took

IN THE FAST LANE

    I know, it’s a need for speed

    but why am I always the one to bleed?

YOUR BODY & how
it works

    I’m swimmin’ upstream doing your thing

    am I really just some plaything?

THE PREDATORS

    when will the leeches layoff?

    can’t you see I’m coming down with this cough?

“WE”

    I’ll do anything for your need

    but your love reeks more of greed

WITHOUT ME YOU’RE NOTHING

    yes, enmeshed in you

    but you said we were like glue

A Poetic Commentary: Kitty Cat, Kitty Cat, Scratched My Leg

Kitty Cat, Kitty Cat, Scratched My Leg Melondy: Issues of Adolescence Series

Kitty Cat, Kitty Cat, Scratched My Leg
Melondy: Issues of Adolescence Series

Kitty Cat, Kitty Cat, Scratched My Leg

    and you didn’t ask anymore questions

    no need to make anymore confessions

A TEAR AND A SMILE 

    shed a tear, slash a tear

    smile in relief of this nightmare

BLEEDING HEART

    cut my arm to stop the pain

    and you think I’m just insane

BEYOND THIS POINT ARE MONSTERS

    no, not hiding under my bed

    no, they abide inside my head

BLOOD WORK 

    numb, so numb, here I kneel

    carve out my pain, just want to feel

ASYLUM FOR THE QUEEN 

    nowhere is safe, you don’t understand

    it is my blood they demand

THE DETLING SECRET

    that I could never tell

    you can’t comprehend my hell

KILLER'S LAUGHTER

    they're never quiet

    but live in a perpetual riot

Helping Someone with Mental Illness

    helping? you think you’re helping?

    no, it’s just too overwhelming

STOLEN LIVES 

    stolen? is it worth getting back?

    I’ll just suffer another anxiety attack

 

A Poetic Commentary: I See London, I See France

I See London, I See France Melondy: Issues of Adolescence Series

I See London, I See France
Melondy: Issues of Adolescence Series

I See London, I See France

    never thought they’d see my underpants

    never thought I’d risk that chance

SPIKED

    twas innocent enough, meet up with him
       after class

    never thought to think about what was in
       that glass

THE MARK-OFF WOMEN 

    never thought I’d just be another tick on
       his list

    never thought I was special enough to
       be kissed

SEDUCTION by DESIGN 

    looking back, ya, he knew just what to say

    never thought sweet-talking could lead my heart astray

Virgin and Martyr

    I was one, now I’m considered the other

    never thought I could ever tell my mother

YOUR BODY & how it works

    apparently I needed an education

    never thought I’d “learn” via mortification

All He Ever Wanted

    never thought that was what he wanted

    never thought I’d live feeling haunted

 

A Poetic Commentary: Rock A Bye, Bye Baby

Rock A Bye, Bye Baby Melondy: Issues of Adolescence Series

Rock A Bye, Bye Baby
Melondy: Issues of Adolescence Series

Rock A Bye, Bye Baby

    climb out my window by the treetop

    where the wind blows my feet follow nonstop

PANIC

    when the news breaks, 9-1-1 they will call

    but I’ll be long gone, once and for all

Runaway

    just can’t take it anymore

    no matter what I say, they’d just ignore

If You Had Controlling Parents

    you’d understand

    and give me a hand

DONE WRONG

    that’s right they did

    and they blame me, I’m just the kid!

The Opposite of Love

    I could give you a laundry list

    but for now, I think you get the gist

FIASCO

    that’s what it was alright

    but no one wants to listen to my plight

THE SILENT CRADLE

    it’s been that way for a long long time

    finally said enough of this grime!

THE GIRL WHO KICKED THE HORNET’S NEST 

    but is this much better?

    perhaps I should of packed a sweater

A COLOSSAL FAILURE OF COMMON SENSE 

    accomplished Plan A: disappear

    but where do I go from here?

Dr Strangelove’s Game

    at least there’s someone in this world that cares

    even gave me a place to stay in his downstairs

THE FINAL DIAGNOSIS

    but it’s not all together for him either

    he needs my help so he can catch a breather

On Beauty

    he’s given me so much and nicknamed me Beautiful

    not helping him out would be inexcusable

LIES (And the Lying Liars Who Tell Them) 

    who to believe? no one to trust

    guess I’ll just have to adjust

NO SAFE PLACE

    no, not anywhere

    just want to wake up from this nightmare

BOULEVARD OF BROKEN DREAMS 

    walking these streets, but not alone

    walking these streets, trailing testosterone