anxiety

A Poetic Commentary: Alone I Die, Lest I Learn To Fly

Alone I Die, Lest I Learn To Fly In the Garden of Beasts Series

Alone I Die, Lest I Learn To Fly
In the Garden of Beasts Series

Alone I Die, Lest I Learn To Fly

    isolated on this lonely isle

    filthy, dirty, wretched, and vile

GRAY MATTER

    twas it a matter of conscience?

    how then twas much of me conscious?

encyclopedia of MORALS

    gone over and over and over again

    to this torment shall there be no end?

WHEN BOUNDARIES BETRAY US

    twas never meant to do harm

    must then be taken so by his charm

the year of MAGICAL THINKING

    became a score and two of its dark spell

    secretly keeping in me heart this hell

Our Game

    twas to be so innocent but of course

    yea innocence twas lost through subtle force

I NEVER PROMISED YOU A ROSE GARDEN

    memories forget any pledge be made

    but untold confessions of being afraid

F.I.A.S.C.O

    be tangled in this failure

    abandoned feel and out of favor

Body and Soul

    harm not one without the other

    heal not one without another

A Death of Innocence

    isolated in this lone isle

    must me thoughts and I reconcile

A Poetic Commentary: What Little Girls Are Made Of

What Little Girls Are Made Of Melondy: Issues of Adolescence Series

What Little Girls Are Made Of
Melondy: Issues of Adolescence Series

What Little Girls Are Made Of

    sugar and spice, everything nice?

    hmm, what’s your price?

WE’VE GOT IT MADE IN AMERICA 

    not just far far on the other side of the
       ocean blue

    yup, but we’ve made it here in the U-S-of-
       A, too

CATASTROPHE

    that says it in a word

    but the statistics are often quite blurred

PRESCRIPTION FOR DISASTER

    run-aways, throw-aways, other exploitables, too

    bystanders ignorantly apathetic of what they’re going through

DARKNESS ON THE EDGE OF TOWN 

    slick predators lurk in broad daylight

    exquisitely enticing by fraud, force, or fright

LOOK BETTER NAKED 

    I know you can do it, my pretty girlfriend

    you’ll make me so happy (and a fortune), in the end

A Woman’s Worth

    whatcha got from last night?

    baby, don’t make me beat you again, alright?!

I Don’t Know How She Does It 

    but she’s his bottom line

    ya, she keeps the rest of us towing the line!

DON’T MAKE A SCENE 

    just do what you’re told

    otherwise his love he might withhold

GUILT | ONLY LOVE | FIVE PAST MIDNIGHT | THREE WISHES 

    it’s the same night after night, day after day

    try to stay alive, but for sale or display

HOMESICK 

    do I even have a home to be sick for?

    or is that in part why they now call me a whore?

TWILIGHT CHILD

    living in the shadows

    don’t look like a victim, they suppose

RUNNING BLIND | DREAM COUNTRY | SHATTERED | A CERTAIN SLANT OF LIGHT 

    nowhere to run, nowhere to hide

    nowhere to turn, cuz even I’m deceived inside

I’ll Be Seeing You | Remember Me | Let Me Call You Sweet Heart 

    you look pretty young to be out here like this

    come with me and I’ll give you a better life miss

STREET TRENDS 

    the idea of leaving, of believing, of reassuring, oh so alluring

    but pimp’s mom’s watching my baby, my returning ever insuring

HELL’S CARTEL

    they’ve got their hands in everything

    and I’m strung out, part of their ring

LITTLE ALTARS EVERYWHERE 

    on a corner here, a hotel room there

    now a website, and another to compare

YOU BELONG TO ME | AMERICAN DREAMS | TOXIN | FIREBIRD 

    keep living “the life”

    keep putting up with this strife

TIME EXPIRED 

    but how long can this go on?

    they say the average is six years, then gone

SUICIDE SEASON

    not sure this is a life worth living

    don’t know how much longer I can keep on giving

THE LIES THAT BIND

    these cords around my neck

    are they any worse than the ones that keep my mind “in check”?

A Tangled Web 

    it’s just all so confusing

    who to believe, who’s abusing?

PEACE LIKE A RIVER | “P” IS FOR PERIL | SUMMER ISLAND | THE INCUMBENT 

    perhaps I’ll fall asleep and never wake

    finally at peace from this perpetual heartbreak

NEVER LOVE A STRANGER 

    never love again

    never trust men

The Wanting 

    but something cries deep down inside me

    something screaming I just want to be free

FAMILY POLITICS

    ya just like politics and religion

    sex and money aren’t to be spoken of, but in a hushed smidgen

Keep It Simple, Stupid 

    just do what your told

    don’t ask questions, stay controlled

The Accidental Bride 

    accidental or on purpose?

    are you just feeding me lip service?

Love & Desire & Hate 

    don’t know what to think anymore

    don’t even have feeling left to ignore

THAT DEVIL’S NO FRIEND OF MINE 

    but I guess this one thing I do know

    so long I’ve lived in the stupor of status quo

RAGING HEART 

    at least this anger proves I can feel again

    but you want me to forgive what and when?!

THE RESCUE | CODE TO ZERO | MY MOTHER’S DAUGHTER | EVEN STEVEN 

    how ‘bout I actually get stable first

    cuz literally everything in my life, in my head, is turned upside-down, reversed

WHEN GOD WHISPERS YOUR NAME 

    then you know there’s hope

    gives me something I need this day to cope

Breaking Through

    a new dawning

    found I have true belonging

Peace, Love & Healing

    one day at a time

    will take a while to thoroughly heal from this crime

The Meaning of Life 

    oh, so much more than I was told

    I can be my own person, live bold!

CHANGE

    in a direction I couldn’t even then imagine

    still living on earth, but it’s actually now heaven

CLOSE TO YOU 

    freedom, new life, here and now

    will you let Me show you how?

 

A Poetic Commentary: Once Upon A Time

Once Upon A Time Melondy: Issues of Adolescence Series

Once Upon A Time
Melondy: Issues of Adolescence Series

Once Upon A Time

    a long long time ago

    in a place I used to know

Harvest of Yesterdays

    is this reaping what was sown?

    finally paying off the loan?

HOW TO GET WELL

    I want to be well, I want to be well

    I want to be well, I just want to yell!

SILENT NO MORE 

    can’t keep this bottled up

    can’t keep covering up

TELL ME MORE

    will you listen, really listen?

    cuz it’s compassion I’m really missin’

DARE TO DREAM

    let it flow

    feel the glow

Girls Forever Brave and True 

    I can be one

    Yes, I am one

MEMORIES

    painful stabs, repeating past

    oh, how long will it last?

Yesterday, I Cried 

    they say it’s okay

    good to let it out each day

PROMISES

    this too shall pass

    and I will be healed at last!

WHAT REMAINS 

    put the pieces back together

    feel in the process, feel better

Never Forget

    my whole is greater than the sum of my brokenness

    faith, hope, and love bring me wholesomeness

FALL & RISE 

    no matter how hard and far I fell

    it is never too hard or far to get well

A Poetic Commentary: Rain Rain, Go Away

Rain Rain, Go Away Melondy: Issues of Adolescence Series

Rain Rain, Go Away
Melondy: Issues of Adolescence Series

Rain Rain, Go Away

    can’t you see I’m sad today

    why also make the sky so gray?

The Girl with No Shadow 

    no one notices

    no condolences

A PATH THROUGH SUFFERING

    paved alone

    it’s all I’ve known

Find Me

    in the crisis

    just wanna be priceless

SEARCH THE SHADOWS 

    never give up

    you’ll find me among the other screw-ups

IT TAKES a FAMILY 

    so start acting like one!

    otherwise the dark side has won

Stop the Insanity! 

    these shadows are choking me

    just want you, me, all of us, to be free

caught in the act

    swear I was naive

    please, I was deceived!

IN THE BLINK OF AN EYE

    deliverance came!

    such brilliant light cleansed my shame

SLAYING THE DRAGON

    I stand alone no longer

    Here stronger conquer the monster

CARE OF THE SOUL

    mind no longer enshroud

    more than possible, all power endowed

The Law of Love 

    a fresh perspective

    a life now actually effective

STANDING FIRM

    standing my ground

    beyond the shadow, I am found!

 

A Poetic Commentary: Ring Around The Roses

Ring Around The Roses Melondy: Issues of Adolescence Series

Ring Around The Roses
Melondy: Issues of Adolescence Series

Ring Around The Roses

    pocket full of supposes

    the diagnosis just under our noses

Beyond Tomorrow

    gotta keep believing it’s possible

    this life will not end horrible

HOW TO PREVENT AND GAIN REMISSION FROM CANCER

    can’t tell you now

    but I know it’s possible somehow

FLU

    initially felt ordinary, common enough

    but fighting this one’s became something quite tough

NUTRITION AGAINST DISEASE

    an apple a day keeps the doctor away

    so they say, but will I be okay?

THE ENCYCLOPEDIA OF COMMON DISEASES 

    gotta learn what I can

    gotta find answers, gotta have a plan

CANCER FACTS & FALLACIES

    what’s false and what’s true?

    is this stat or study askew?

TODAY IS MINE

    no matter what I will breakthrough

    to a real cure I pursue

THE HEALTH BUILDER 

    the sun rises and shines in my room

    and like the flowers I will rise and bloom

A Poetic Commentary: Now I Lay Me Down To Sleep

Now I Lay Me Down To Sleep Melondy: Issues of Adolescence Series

Now I Lay Me Down To Sleep
Melondy: Issues of Adolescence Series

Now I Lay Me Down To Sleep

    pray the Lord my soul to keep

    and if I die while counting sheep…

If... 

    not even the question anymore

    when, that’s a better word to explore

Drive Me Crazy

    can’t take it anymore

    what’s this life worth living for?

NOT A DAY GOES BY

    that I don’t consider it

    do I have the nerve to commit?

AT RISK

    they say I’m in despair

    but what do they care?

DEAD CONNECTION

    make the connection

    just need some affection

LOVE’S EXECUTIONER

    wrote the note, how I loved you

    just wish you felt the same too

BLESSED TRAGEDY 

    to be put out of this misery

    sorry if this causes injury

NATURE’S END

    screaming, I came into this world

    crying, sighing, I leave it unfurled

 

A Poetic Commentary: Cross My Heart

Cross My Heart Melondy: Issues of Adolescence Series

Cross My Heart
Melondy: Issues of Adolescence Series

Cross My Heart

    hope we don’t die

    please don’t leave me high and dry

The Fireside book of FISHING

    I’m strung out on this hook

    your candied bait I’ve took

IN THE FAST LANE

    I know, it’s a need for speed

    but why am I always the one to bleed?

YOUR BODY & how
it works

    I’m swimmin’ upstream doing your thing

    am I really just some plaything?

THE PREDATORS

    when will the leeches layoff?

    can’t you see I’m coming down with this cough?

“WE”

    I’ll do anything for your need

    but your love reeks more of greed

WITHOUT ME YOU’RE NOTHING

    yes, enmeshed in you

    but you said we were like glue

A Poetic Commentary: Birds Of A Feather

Birds Of A Feather Melondy: Issues of Adolescence Series

Birds Of A Feather
Melondy: Issues of Adolescence Series

Birds Of A Feather

    they flock together

    friends in fair weather

The Divas

    their tight-knit clique

    comes unraveled at the slightest nitpick

MADE IN HOLLYWOOD

    they think they’re shining stars

    they’re the bane of this school of ours!

SET HER ON A THRONE

    they quibble who’s the fairest

    gossipy twits, they should be embarrassed

THE MIND OF THE CAT 

    but who am I to blame

    after all, I’d share in their fame

Experiential Psychotherapy: BASIC PRACTICES 

    these games we play

    I just wanna be accepted, okay?!

THE LITTLE DRUMMER GIRL

    playing to my own tune

    guess I don’t fit in with those buffoons

Care of MIND/Care of SPIRIT

    but it haunts me so

    more then you’ll ever know

MORE THAN MOODY 

    what else am I supposed to think?

    without them, I’ll never be in sync!

 

A Poetic Commentary: Kitty Cat, Kitty Cat, Scratched My Leg

Kitty Cat, Kitty Cat, Scratched My Leg Melondy: Issues of Adolescence Series

Kitty Cat, Kitty Cat, Scratched My Leg
Melondy: Issues of Adolescence Series

Kitty Cat, Kitty Cat, Scratched My Leg

    and you didn’t ask anymore questions

    no need to make anymore confessions

A TEAR AND A SMILE 

    shed a tear, slash a tear

    smile in relief of this nightmare

BLEEDING HEART

    cut my arm to stop the pain

    and you think I’m just insane

BEYOND THIS POINT ARE MONSTERS

    no, not hiding under my bed

    no, they abide inside my head

BLOOD WORK 

    numb, so numb, here I kneel

    carve out my pain, just want to feel

ASYLUM FOR THE QUEEN 

    nowhere is safe, you don’t understand

    it is my blood they demand

THE DETLING SECRET

    that I could never tell

    you can’t comprehend my hell

KILLER'S LAUGHTER

    they're never quiet

    but live in a perpetual riot

Helping Someone with Mental Illness

    helping? you think you’re helping?

    no, it’s just too overwhelming

STOLEN LIVES 

    stolen? is it worth getting back?

    I’ll just suffer another anxiety attack